i have been hit with an Affliction
i have dealt with really bad perfectionism ever since i finished working on dust over 2 years ago that has only gotten worse with time. it has gotten to the point where i cant even bring myself to go back to old projects and finish them or even start new ones because i straight up do not think i will bring them where i truly want them to be and its easier to leave shit unfinished than it is the finish stuff and leave it in a state that i am unhappy with, which would be a basically 100% chance of happening at this point with the standards i have set for myself.
i do genuinely apologize for having basically nothing new to show after all this time. i am never really active online because i dont really understand how to use social media in any meaningful way but i also have nothing really cool for yall to see or listen to either so i kind of have no reason to do anything but lurk or scroll. and im honestly not sure how long that is going to take to change if ever.
if anyone has advice to combat this i would be happy to hear it, but i just want to fall in love with creating things again. it has only ever been going through the motions or nonproductive at best, and miserable at worst.
signing off for who knows how long once again
— dani